Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Think about how many things are on your mind in this very moment and then imagine all of those thoughts condensed into that tiny little head of yours, even smaller, condensed into your brain. Weird to imagine right? Now think about your thoughts. Are they what you want them to be? If not, change them. It's amazing what self-affirmations can do for you. Call me weird, call me whatever you want, but when I catch myself doubting who I am or the way I look, I stop myself and simply say "No, I am beautiful," and the more I say it the more I actually believe it.
Ever since high school I've hated magazines. The way they portray celebrities, people's "role models," dressed provocatively as if that's acceptable, claiming that this is how you need to look in order to get someone, anyone's attention. Disgusting. The way they train you to be a certain way if you want to be happy or if you want to score the right guy. Wear this makeup and he''ll for sure go for you. Say these words and you'll become irresistible. It's funny because I used to believe all this. I thought the more and more I read, the more confident and beautiful and sexy I would become. But the exact opposite happened. My insecurities grew and my self confidence was shattered. I continued to compare myself to these "perfect" beings in the magazine and anyone walking down the street for that matter. I would ask myself "Why can't I look like that?" "Why are they so lucky that they were created perfectly?" Was I serious?
What happened to the beauty that lies within each and every one of us? I know it sounds corny, but it's true! If our souls are beautiful, it will reflect on the outside through our physical body. When you become happy with who you are on the inside, you will see the sparkle in your own eyes. And then you will see it in everyone else's eyes. You'll stop judging everyone else, you'll stop judging yourself. Judgment hurts; it's an unnatural state of my mind. That's why you feel pain anytime you judge someone or something. It's merely a reflection of the things you are unhappy with in your own life.
I used to wonder why my art couldn't look like this artists, why my mind couldn't create something as beautiful, but then I realized it can. It's irrelevant to compare yourself to anyone, to compare your work to anyone else's. There's no point, it's a waste of energy. You are you. You will always be you, no matter what, so find the beauty that resides in you because you have it. Beauty takes all shapes and forms, it's effortless, it has no restrictions, no limitations, it's infinite, it's incomparable. We all think and create differently so that all these talents and thoughts and desires and passions come together to create something beautiful; to create life, to create peace, to create a world where you love yourself and I love you too.
Consider this a warning sign. Don't fall victim to the bullshit that the media feeds you. Don't be anyone but yourself. Own who you are, because there is no other you out there.
Listening to the song Warning Sign by Coldplay inspired the title of this blog, so if you haven't heard it, check it out, it's BEAUTIFUL.
This is just a painting I did the other week that I thought I'd share!
Have a beautiful day everyone.