Wandering Through My Wonder

I ponder if people wonder about the same things I wonder about.
I wonder if they secretly wander into the deepest parts of their doubt.
Do you wish to be a tree?
Do you wish to live under the sea?
Do you imagine the wind blowing through your branches, pulling your leaves apart?
Do you imagine being rooted in yourself and uncovering the layers of your heart?
I wonder if others wish to release all of their judgements like me.
I wonder if they want so badly to tear their walls down and set themselves free.
Where do thoughts go if you never face them?
And what happens to them if you embrace them?

Awaken Your Soul

We are consciousness expressing itself through a physical manifestation of love and an infinite dance of beauty. We are limiting ourselves by putting our worth in paper (money, diplomas, etc.) and by measuring our capabilities with time. We are not prescription drugs, or confined schooling or implants; we are not labor and unhappiness and suffering; the problem is we've come to believe that we are these "things" and that we need all of these "things" to shape ourselves and our future, but we don't. They only prolong our misery, helping us to become comfortably numb with what we call "life." Our biggest problem is that we excuse ourselves by accepting that "this is just life, it's just the human condition." No!That's not life! That's how we've made life, and that's how we've made ourselves.

Not many of us have the guts to face ourselves anymore. To face the deepest, darkest shadows of our soul, for fear of what we may see, the judgments we may make against ourselves, the guilt we may feel; so sadly, we live out a life of strange, never ending despair and confusion. It's "easier" that way, right? Finding yourself is frowned upon, a waste of time. Self-reflection and introspection are considered vacation now, and we're automatically labeled as an outkast if we DARE to be different, SO...most of us on this earth don't step out of our comfort zones for the ultimate fear of what others might say. Well, who cares what others say?!?!

The only person who is going to regret your life is YOU. So while everyones busy externalizing their regrets on you because they can't take responsibility for their own life and the creation of their reality, I BEG you to go FIND YOURSELF. Find what you love, what lights the fire in your heart so much that the passion takes over your entire being. So much so that the bullshit your brain wants to feed to your heart doesn't matter, because you finally know what it feels like to truly be alive. FIND OUT so that you don't have to look back at your life one day and wonder what you could have done different.

We need people to change this world right now. We - this earth and every single human inhabiting it - need you to stand up for what you believe in. FIGHT. Fight for your right to express yourself. Fight for your right to be genuinely happy and healthy. Fight for your right to LOVE yourself and everyone around you. Fight for your righ to know the truth. If we don't fight, we fail, and that's NOT an option, so go on an adventure and let yourself go. Awaken your soul.

It's going to be hard, and it's going to hurt, and you're going to cry and kick and scream, but your also going to laugh harder than you've ever laughed before, you'll meet the most beautiful people and see the most beautiful things. You'll experience a side of yourself that you didn't think existed, a side of love and compassion and warmth. You'll understand the feeling of staring into someone's eyes, only to see your own divine self reflected back to you. You'll feel beautiful. You are going to FEEEL. Not pain; joy, not envy; honor. And you know what? At the end of the day, your words can't hurt more than their lies, so speak your truth, no matter what anyone says to you, SPEAK YOUR TRUTH, because if it feels right, than it is right. Yea the truth hurts, but only temporarily, until it blooms into something much sweeter. Lies on the other hand, will haunt you forever. So please, let's put aside our pride and bring the child within us back to life. Be the change you want to see in the world so that we may live in harmony, happiness, and peace once again.

Sometimes

I don't like to think I'm pretending, but
I guess that's what
It Is.

I don't like to think I'm writing this for anyone, but
I guess
I am.

I don't like to admit I'm scared, but
I know
I am.

I don't want to live in the future, but
I'm not always in
the present.

I know this earth is beautiful, but sometimes I wish I could just be
in heaven.

Will I become everything I know I can be?
Will I fulfill the dreams that I always see?

Somewhere in my heart space, will I tap into the essence of me?
I don't like to think of what couldn't be,
but how could I not?

I love remembering, but sometimes I wish I never forgot.

Writing is my life, but I usually dread the next line.
Words are everything to me,
but sometimes I wishh I didn't rhyme.

When I think about the Universe and where it is that I fit in,
I feel my heart explode with bliss,
I feel everything I have to give.

There's a difference between existing and living in your truth,
So close your eyes and take a step into your joyful youth.

Remember how it felt to run through the grass with your arms open wide?
Remember what it felt like to know the limit was the sky?
If we can find a way to take this state of mind,
then maybe we can unite ourselves and let our minds
unwind.

We all have a flame inside, a soul that's meant to fly free,
So listen to your heart when it tells you to just
BE.

Be who you are,
with no restraints,
questions
or
concerns.
Look right into your self.
It is there you will learn.
Anything and everything you've ever wanted to know.
Plant your love into others hearts and watch as their flowers, grow,
light your candle, then start a spark,
Watch how the world will glow.

Spirituality is Being True to Yourself

Spirituality is not a standard or a set of rules or guidelines that you live by. It's not becoming a vegetarian, doing yoga, or meditating everyday. By conceptualizing these ideas, we limit and bind ourselves to everything that spirituality is not. There's no initiation to being "spiritual," no ritual. It is simply the dedication to understanding yourself and life to the deepest depths, and from this dedication stems the truths of the universe, the laws of love that we were created to live with.
In understanding the many facets of life, we come to appreciate everything that life has to offer, everything it teaches us.

When we are able to understand ourselves, we are able to understand the universe, for they are one in the same. With this knowledge comes forgiveness, forgiveness of others misunderstandings and judgments, anger and hurt, coldness and fear, but most importantly, forgiveness of ourselves. Forgiveness of the judgments WE'VE made, the decisions we regret, the words we wish we never said. And then, with this forgiveness, comes love. Unconditional love. Love in knowing that every single expression of life is rooted in the latter, in knowing that that root blooms into itself, into love, from love, and will never cease to exist.

Being Spiritual doesn't mean that you are "happy" and "cheery" all of the time, or that nothing seems to phase you, because it sure as hell does. I used to believe this crap, and because of it I put myself down, thinking that if I'm spiritual, shouldn't I be on the same "level" of these other "spiritual" beings? Shouldn't I be able to rid myself of pain and fear because I "know" the supposed truth? Why am I still crying? Why can't I live what I know? Why do I still have an ego when I know that's not who I am? WHY do I still hurt so much? I let my mind eat my heart from the inside out until I realized the truth . . .

The truth is...you sure as hell do hurt, and you sure as hell do cry, and you will do so until YOU don't need to anymore and only you know when that is. Pain in the heart is usually a deep hurt, a hurt that takes time to let go of and heal. You should cry, you should scream, you should be angry. LET IT OUT. Just let yourself go, and know that when you are ready, and only when you are ready, your true self will be waiting for you in your heart, to actualize itself. Time isn't going anywhere, so be patient with yourself and you'll find the truth in that patience.

You'll understand that being "spiritual" is actually just trial and error for finding the truth, and the truth is whatever resonates with YOU. You'll feel it, you'll know it. You'll understand the movement and rhythm of life, and you won't be overwhelmed or overtaken by unpleasant circumstances that arise.
You'll understand the contrast of life within the oneness that it is. That pain brings life to pleasure, and that darkness is only there so that it may be lit up once again. Yes, emotions are transient and experiences are unexpected, but it's all a learning experience. Not knowing what's going to come next. Not knowing what the next piece might be to the seemingly never ending puzzle. That not-knowingness, infused with the essence of knowingness- that trust you feel towards the universe that everything is unfolding as it should- is what makes life so damn beautiful, because no matter what, life goes on, and you are still alive.

So throw yourself into the wind, trusting that life will carry you wherever you need to be, even if you have no idea where you are going. 

Oh Life, What Are You?

I've decided to just make a list of some questions/observations I've had lately (with some possible answers). My intentions aren't to offend, just interested in hearing others' points of view. Feel free to comment on here with your possible answers or you can send me an email at bergerjenna@yahoo.com ! peacee to yall <3333

*Christians/Catholics believe that God judges you based on whether you've been good or bad enough to go to "heaven" or "hell." What I wonder is what if going to "hell" is really just us reincarnating on earth (what we now think is hell) until we've finished our karmic cycle and then were able to go to heaven? Heaven being the higher dimensions from which we originally come, our natural state, our "comfort zone.. What if our souls made plans & contracts with God, Source, Spirit to learn certain life lessons and until we've truly learned them and allowed our I AM presence (true spirit) to actualize, we're not yet ready to graduate from this cosmic classroom?

*So I was thinking about Christianity/Catholicism (CC) compared to Buddhism, and I wondered why CC views God as greater than us or of an essence that we are not. If God is everything and we were created in his image then wouldn't we be the children of his art?
 Buddhists believe that the God is within you as well as without, that there is no separation of all that is, and all that is is bound to the laws of love, so I came up with an analogy to try explain why giving your power away (feeling inferior to God) seems silly. 

- So you have a painter who painted a painting. The Painter isn't greater than the painting and the painting isn't greater than the painter, they are both just the essence of the same thing in different forms. The painter holds the emotion of his work within and unveils it as a piece of art without, taking nothing away from the emotion, just merely expressing it, like I said, in a different form.

*What if we are an experiment? (which I think we are) What if Adam & Eve were the beginning and God gave them the option to eat from the tree of knowledge (although he warned them not to) just to see what would happen? What if we are the results :)

*According to Christianity and Catholicism (I believe, correct me if I'm wrong), God is all forgiving and after you die you stand before God in a time of judgement, asking for forgiveness for your sins, and if you don't, you are sent to hell, but if God is all forgiving then wouldn't he forgive you for not asking for forgiveness?

*Again, according to Christianity and Catholicism, you can be eternally damned and perished. What I want to know is why God would ever express himself as something that can be eternally damned ? (since God is everything) 

Anyways, only a few more days until the Christ Consciousness - the knowing of the true self & embodiment of love- is activated. It's about time we allow our lives to unfold as they should.

Step Into Your Heart and out of Your Mind

Love is not a source from without, love is a source from within.
Reach to the deepest depths of your soul and find the core of your being where your truth resides.
There's no need to try and lie to yourself.
We're playing this game of hide and go seek where we see how far we can separate ourselves from ourselves, until one day we snap back into the actual reality of who we are and remember that this pain we feel is not real.
We wanted to have this experience on earth because it shows us what duality and polarity and physicality and everything in between is.
We are eternal beings who decided to put eternity on hold to create an illusory relationship with time.
What is time really?
Alan Watts said, "Time is a measure of a rate of change."
It's a bunch of numbers thrown on a piece of plastic or metal or wood to judge how quickly or how slowly we are manifesting things in our life, and we use these judgments to criticize and ridicule each other.
Kind of like money.
An energy exchange put in paper so that we have a way to categorize each other.
So we can feel "better" than everyone else, or secretly lower.
We've decided to trade our souls for paper and clocks and everything we're not.
But I think it's so beautiful that we've spent our lives so invested in something that we thought would make us happy because that's all we really want at the end of the day.
Genuine happiness.
It's incredible that they've (and I'll leave it up to your imagination on who "they" are) succeeded in encouraging us to fall for this illusion and that we've victimized ourselves by following along as they nudged us to give ourselves up so that we might be able to possess this illusion.
But it cannot be possessed because it does not exist.
And now the time has come for us to realize that the only existence is ourselves.
We are all connected, we are all one, and we all exist throughout and within each other.
There is no separation and no "other."
There is just you and the reflection of yourself found within every crevice and corner of the infinite universe.
We are stepping out of the Age of Pisces and into the Age of Aquarius.
For thousands of years now we've been like fish out of water, uncomfortable in our own skin, trapped in our own "home," suffering without repose.
We've been thirsty for knowledge, but overcome with confusion.
We've been running around looking outside of ourselves, trying to exceed our own capacity by stepping out of our own hearts, but in doing so we've relentlessly given our power away.
So now, as we step into the Age of Aquarius - the water bearer- we return home.
We return home and remember how to swim effortlessly through the ocean of our own being.

Namaste and much love every one <3

Feels So Good

It feels good to give your heart a hug
Its like the lonely teenager who just wants some attention and love
Someone who will listen to them and not judge
A care free love with a warm embrace
A spirit of one who sees past the face
Value of things are not always what they seem
and if you loosen your mind you'll pull at the seams
of the universe and all of its mystery
A history written with no beginning and no end
What if you could be your own friend?
Accept and understand the being within
What if you could ignite that passion in your heart?
Have a fresh start?
What if you could wipe away your past?
Would you hold on to it or let it pass?
Can you feel that in your heart?
Will you listen to it and express its art?
It feels good to give yourself what you want
It feels good to let go of the fear that taunts
Your darkest night
Where faith seems to be nowhere in sight
When you break your walls down
and you let your tears fall down
When you let your blood pour itself all over your pain
and feel every ounce of who you used to be drain
Only then can you touch the sky.